Somebody

Somebody!
And yet nobody hear me
I struggle everyday
But rarely anybody help me

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I think that will be the words the person will speak out loud if he has the will to. Because I ever been in his shoes before, more or less I know how it feels on his stead right now. He's younger than me but he rarely say anything about his hardships. Only presenting weak smiles at me and said, "I'm sorry I can't," or, "I'm sorry I'm late," or "I'm sorry yet again for making you wait for me," and yesterday, "Just let me do it, you've been waiting too long." He rarely told me anything (but lately he opens up to me). I talked to him and tried to give him some support because I know how it felt to stand there with nobody around you. Rarely anybody tried to understand what's going on in your life. And when I stood there, there was no one to help me. So, I think I need to help him and make sure that he won't feel the same as what I've felt before.
I stood alone and I pray he will stand with at least someone reliable beside him.
Ah... I feel like shading tears writing this. But yes... this is what I feel about him and toward him. He's, like, really busy, even busier than me. Just now I got a message that he was sick. I asked him and he told me he rarely got the time to rest and even to eat. "I only eat dinner..." he chatted me just now... and I feel like... well... broken...? Or worried? Sad? I don't know... I feel many kind of bad emotion reading that chat.
I hope he'll be in free time soon. That someone whom I've thought as my own little brother.